"My Journey to Clarity"

About 25 years ago, in the late 1990s, I was living in the midst of a busy city. There was nothing special about this particular day. I had just returned home from work, no extraordinary events to share. Though it was dark outside, the city lights created this familiar urban glow against the night sky.

As always, headlights from passing cars painted moving shapes onto my walls – but this time, these flickering patterns seemed to converge in a certain rhythm and communicate with me, creating a mesmerizing mixture of signs and pulses.

I've never taken drugs, but I imagine the experience might feel like that.

Out of the blue, I experienced a sense of clarity that I had never felt before, and it hasn't left me to this day. This was a profound understanding of humanity—its light, its darkness—and its relationship with the divine.

There were no voices, no writing on the wall, no signs, no burning bushes. It was just an 'aha' moment, but of such a magnitude that it ignited real fear in me, fear I had never felt before. 

I panicked. It changed to being highly alert – and then I became calm. Clarity took over. 

Since I was a child I knew: God is not a person. But in this very moment I realized: God is all of it, looked at me, moved towards me, gestured gently.

It was so overwhelming – I was afraid, my head would explode.

This whole ordeal left me with one question: 'What am I going to do with this?' If I were to tell just one person about this, they might think I’ve gone nuts - obviously.

But after 25 years I am not afraid anymore – not afraid to share this experience and my insights for your benefit on your spiritual journey. It’s like I’ve learned a new language in all these years – and I would love to translate for you.